Hmmm. When having decided to make sushi for lunch, or attempt to, it might be an idea to let the rice cool down. Although, maybe better to make rice at lunch and then make sushi for dinner. That idea literally pinged just now. Oh. It tasted pretty alright though. :)

high hill highs and valley deep lows. Always. And only worked out how I'd felt all life, was depression. That was about three months ago. Having a ghastly evening (broken down about two and a half or three times tonight), though company in 'ouse is balanced. I however, feel like running screaming into the streets.

however, I will spare the neighbours, who would be somewhat worried seeing their friendly local pharmacist assistant suddenly going quite cuckoo.

Just talked to friend of psychology background, up here. Perhaps we will work on this. After all, everyone deserves to enjoy their achievements and present living life and get to know oneself and elevate themselves to a nice state of nirvana or at least something to roll around the rafters in the good and rotten tomato times with.

Don't mind me, I probably don't make any sense, but writing it all down helps sometimes to make sense of the hurt, jumbled, aggravated mess that is making up the inside of my skull at the moment. Black as the inside of a cat on a dark moonless night, as Mr Pratchett mused. Hmmm.

Call me silly, call me changeable, call me an old softy. And the nature pantheism/Animism showing itself of me. I don't care, I think this the nicest, sweetest thing I've seen for a while. Scroll down for a really nice photo. Good for you old chap, I think you well deserve it:

http://news.uk.msn.com/Article.aspx?cp-documentid=8260931&imageindex=8#4715236

:) Isn't he just bloody gorgeous? xxx

I just had a walk in the garden and smelled the blossom, like Lu-Tse (Lao -Tze). Maybe that grounded me, in the beauty of nature.