gothic_violin (![[info]](http://p-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif){kind=small} gothic_violin) wrote,@ 2008-03-12 18:22:00 |
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I'm bored, and listless. And going down up the dips and peaks of life. ****
I am someone never satisfied, and always beating myself up mentally over, that I should be doing more. And that there are better and so many things I should be doing out there. This has reduced me to the greatest of pain and feelings of grisly grisly anxiety and fraught mind. Sigh, I can cause such knots in my head. Grrrrrrrr.
As Huw and Tony Williams sang: "Everybody wants to be....., Living in the Movie with the Baddie and the Goodie". How true. I am equally blessed and cursed with an extraordinary imagination and mind, and way too much in tune to my feelings, failings, wantings and dreams. How I stretch my hands out in supplication and hope.......... Ouch.
At this rate, I will fall to the dominions of myspace and facebook eek!(no no, no no. no no, no no, ...YES!). the gods bless the Vicar of Dibley! and friends reunited but I have been wanting to do the last one for ages.
Damn, I used to like my own company and dreaming, and then adulthood kicked in.. It hurts, it really does. Reality that is.
Or may be I should be good and make this one of my study nights on strengthening my Pagan knowledge some more. that can be done, possibly with some wine......
Ps On a good note, work is still ok, though I was so tired today. I adore most of the people that come in, and the colleagues are good chaps too. :)
Edit: I thought of some things that would help. BLACKADDER visually and the cripsheets. "Ye har me hearties .ye but naught a swizzled piglet, curdled in a vat of visceral stinking lard, hung, I might say, from the yardarm of a sailor's armpit". Oh please Rowan Atkinson, let me join in writing the visual gags for BlackAdder. Oh, please. :)
I am someone never satisfied, and always beating myself up mentally over, that I should be doing more. And that there are better and so many things I should be doing out there. This has reduced me to the greatest of pain and feelings of grisly grisly anxiety and fraught mind. Sigh, I can cause such knots in my head. Grrrrrrrr.
As Huw and Tony Williams sang: "Everybody wants to be....., Living in the Movie with the Baddie and the Goodie". How true. I am equally blessed and cursed with an extraordinary imagination and mind, and way too much in tune to my feelings, failings, wantings and dreams. How I stretch my hands out in supplication and hope.......... Ouch.
At this rate, I will fall to the dominions of myspace and facebook eek!(no no, no no. no no, no no, ...YES!). the gods bless the Vicar of Dibley! and friends reunited but I have been wanting to do the last one for ages.
Damn, I used to like my own company and dreaming, and then adulthood kicked in.. It hurts, it really does. Reality that is.
Or may be I should be good and make this one of my study nights on strengthening my Pagan knowledge some more. that can be done, possibly with some wine......
Ps On a good note, work is still ok, though I was so tired today. I adore most of the people that come in, and the colleagues are good chaps too. :)
Edit: I thought of some things that would help. BLACKADDER visually and the cripsheets. "Ye har me hearties .ye but naught a swizzled piglet, curdled in a vat of visceral stinking lard, hung, I might say, from the yardarm of a sailor's armpit". Oh please Rowan Atkinson, let me join in writing the visual gags for BlackAdder. Oh, please. :)
