gothic_violin ([info]gothic_violin) wrote,
@ 2008-03-12 20:57:00
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Relating to the last post, it's that horrible sense of innate loneliness and failure, that I suppose, I must conquer (any ideas?) before, I can find peace by myself and take my methods of working long term, into consideration and hindsight. It's just so frustrating and debilitating in my head, in the context of the achievement of instant things achieved in the short-term.

*Grumple* :(

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[info]sollersuk
2008-03-12 09:05 pm UTC (link)
*waves*

Loneliness, I'm afraid, goes with the territory. Some of it comes from not being on the wavelength of most of the people around you. Just remember that there are some of us out here too.

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[info]gothic_violin
2008-03-12 09:17 pm UTC (link)
I was thinking that today. Even though we're all folkies, they are very different to me. I'm wondering if I'll ever be content or happy or satisfied. Though I am pleased at realising what was niggling at me, I just don't quite know what to do. I'm going to have to keep pondering on it. It's certainly part of not fitting in anywhere.

There's no one of my level, especially humour wise, and it doesn't do a body any good to have to watch what they say, because I'm taken either too literally or I'm too dry. Half the time I seem to have bend to fit people because they'd never cope with my world, otherwise they'd never get me, particularly in humour. Though not many have a chance with me - humour of dry/black/macabre/childish/big sense of humour. Although maybe they do? I'm really not sure if I'm living the life I should be. Meh! pshaw! I think it's also crossing various spheres than most people, that's certainly been my experience. :(

I think I just want to be appreciated and understood. I just haven't found anyone as a close friend up here yet. That I suspect would also help....!
It's amazing what comes to mind when thinking and writing on lj. MAny many thanks. Really. :)

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[info]erming
2008-03-13 09:22 am UTC (link)
Hmmm, well I could have rung you I guess, just can't offhand think of things to talk about to people I don't know that well without empasising how many gigs I go to compared to most people.

Anyway if you fancy a chat give us a call sometimes (may be out and about, may be in).

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Silent head, happy heart?
[info]chaoscowboy
2008-03-13 09:46 am UTC (link)
Hey, Abigail if you feel down ring me, please!

I find myself slipping into 'Angry of Streatham' mode where everything annoys me, I had to turn the telly off this morning as i was getting into a real old Victor Meldrew state...then I get upset with myself for getting angry..and it goes round and round in my noggin..so yeah I know how you feel.

I wish I could turn my thoughts off sometimes.

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